Day 2 of Last Week: Tuesday, September 30, 2025: “I”m good!”

Day 2 started with words of support, encouragement, and nausea. Jadan’s handwritten love messages on his medical bracelet are a necessity now. They are just a small reminder of how much he is appreciated.

It continues to be challenging to see him suffer. He has moved ‘into’ himself these last two days. From the outside, watching is hard. According to Merriam-Webster (2025) suffering is “to come to a knowledge of (something) by living through it”. And when ‘Abdu’l-Baha was asked, “Does the soul progress more through sorrow or through the joy in this world?” he replied, “The mind and spirit of man advance when he is tried by suffering. The more the ground is ploughed the better the seed will grow, the better the harvest will be. Just as the plough furrows the earth deeply, purifying it of weeds and thistles, so suffering and tribulation free man from the petty affairs of this worldly life until he arrives at a state of complete detachment. His attitude in this world will be that of divine happiness” (Paris Talks, p.178). Jadan is a perfect example of how he is commtted to choosing positive thoughts during his last week of treatment. Every time his nurse asks him how he is doing, he says, “I’m good!” even when he is struggling. His strength is an inspiriation.

When nausea hits, a cool wash cloth helps. He tends to get warm and by cooling him down, it helps take the focus off not feeling well. He is still sensitive to the smells of the saline, steroid and chemo meds. The nurses are always coming up with new approaches to navigating the smell difficulties. During the third session, the nurse offered to take out the Huber needle that connects to the port after every infusion. This is still being done and continues to help Jadan not only with deceasing the med smell, but also allows him to shower and sleep more comfortably. A new approach he is trying is having a Jolly Rancher hard candy during the connection of the Huber needle and saline flush. It has helped him have more control over the queasiness. I appreciate the creativity and continued effort of Jadan’s nurses to problem solve his side effects. We are so close to completing his treatment. As Jadan says through out the day, “I”m good!”. Yes, he is.

Today’s art is dedicated to the powers of the mind: attention, thinking and memory. The video is a project that was included in a recent presention on how attention, thinking and memory serves information processing in human life span development. The Zentangle Method is an easy-to-learn, relaxing, and fun way to create beautiful images by drawing structured patterns. It increases focus and creativity, provides artistic satisfaction along with an increased sense of personal well-being. The Zentangle Method is enjoyed all over the world, across a wide range of skills, interests and ages. You will need paper, pencil and pen. If you want to add color, water color or colored pencils will do. Enjoy!

Saturday, September 13, 2025 – Adventure time

The Sandias are beautiful, and today was stunning. A cold front was working its way in, and clouds hung low across the Sandia Crest. Van and I did some studying at a local coffee shop, only to get word that the storm had arrived.

We thought is wise to head home, but realized we were right in the heart of it. The rain in Albuquerque is different from what I’ve experienced in Colorado. It seems as if the drops hold more water here. From the coffee shop to the car was enough time to get soaked.

Once back home, it was clear Jadan was still feeling sick from treatment. However, this week’s robot shot went as planned, which was a relief.

Later in the evening, I called Jadan’s doctor to give an update on his nausea. Jadan had been sick since the end of Friday’s treatment—actually, he had not been well all week. The doctor sent us to the ER for fluids and anti-nausea meds. Once there, they took blood and set up into a private room due to being immunocompromised. It took a little while to get settled, but once we did, I felt grateful.

It seemed like a long time before he got his meds – in that time, he got sicker. His body was not able to stop the cycle of vomiting even though he hadn’t eaten.

Finally, as medications were administered, his body was able to relax and rest. We were in the ER from 9 pm – 1 am. As we left, he still felt a little nausea but once home, was able to sleep until the next morning. On Sunday, he was better but very fatigued. He spent the day resting and starting on bland foods.

The hospital staff were very kind and took great care of Jadan. Once again, I am extremely grateful for all the medical support. Knowing that we have great care, and all the love and support from family and friends, inspires us to persevere. One of the photos my dad sent Jadan is a perfect example of inspiration. Jadan was 3 years old in this photo. He loved his hat and his cowboy boots. Yes, he is wearing his boots in these photos, but besides his hat, that was it.

Today’s prayer is for children – one of the kids’ favorites when they were little.

O God, guide me, protect me, make of me a shining lamp and a brilliant star.  Thou art the Mighty and the Powerful.

Abdu’l-Bahá

September 2, 2025: The power of love…

New Mexico sky where living in art is real.

We have begun the second week of taking a break from chemo treatment. Monday, September 8th, will be the first day of Jadan’s third round of chemotherapy. As Jadan progresses through treatment, he has experienced an increase in fatigue and nausea. Managing both can be challenging at times. He continues to immerse his soul in playing guitar and piano. I am instantly filled with gratitude when the house is filled with Jadan’s piano music, especially in the mornings.

Jadan has also been deep diving into his courses: Physics 3, Differential Equations, and piano. His instructors remain available outside regular class time to help accommodate Jadan’s immunocompromised health. When Jadan attends lectures with professors, he wears a mask. Kevin and Jadan often work on problems together at the dining table. I also benefit from Jadan’s learning by being taught formulas and equations that explain reality in space and time. Truly a gift!

Handcrafted bear in turquoise and silver. It symbolizes protection, courage and strength and serves as a spiritual guide.The bear’s qualities are reflected in the Heartline, which illustrates the life force and inner strength of a warrior’s heart.

In a time when so much is unknown about Jadan’s health and the future, one truth infuses us with strength of purpose—the power of love. Love has taken the form of prayers, emails, letters, thoughtful packages, cookies, time with family and visits from friends, bringing soft, cuddly reminders of friendship. Words fall short in expressing how grateful we all are for the continued love and support. The love expressed by family and friends reminds Jadan (all of us) that we are not alone. One of the side of effects of grief and experiencing any form of loss is feeling alone. Symbols, signs and tokens of love give us hope, courage and serve as reminders to persevere in times of tests and difficulties.

Cookies from a dear and precious family.
Anya appreciating beauty in nature.
Jordan and Evelyn bringing tokens of love.
August 30, 2024 – Celebrating last day of radiation treatment.

Being immersed in the power of love reminds me of Laurie and her steadfast courage during her 30 days of radiation treatment. One year ago from August 30th – last Saturday – we surprised her with the biggest balloon we could find. I remember hiding outside, waiting for her and Dave to come out. Several passerbys were hoping they were the recipients of the giant rose balloon and flowers. It is hard to believe so much as changed in such little time. It feels like we lived a lifetime in a year.

Art inspired by love, beauty and knowledge found in nature:

Say: Nature in its essence is the embodiment of My Name, the Maker, the Creator. Its manifestations are diversified by varying causes, and in this diversity there are signs for men of discernment. Nature is God’s Will and is its expression in and through the contingent world. It is a dispensation of Providence ordained by the Ordainer, the All-Wise.— Tablets of Bahá’u’lláh, Lawh-i-Hikmat